O ''apo mhxanhs 8eos'' mou!

Agaphto mou (hlektroniko) hmerologio


An mou to 'lege kaneis prin ligo kairo,tote polu duskola 8a to pisteua.Toulaxiston de 8a pernouse h idea apo to kefali mou sta sovara.An kai fainetai oti telika kapoies plakes kai kapoia asteia pragmata apodeinuetai oti den einai toso asteia...
Otan enas filos ginetai kati polu perissotero...Otan enas an8rwpos pou 8ewreis polu diaforetiko anakalupteis oti telika den einai toso...
Tote ola anatrepontai kai suxna exoun aprosdokhta kai euxarista apotelesmata...!!
Kammia fora otan koitw ligo pisw mou fainetai kai asteio kai periergo.Polu Funny leme,xixixi!!

Ton gnwrisa peripou prin ena xrono.Htan gnwstos gia to xioumor tou,alla kai genikotera enas arketa aisiodoksos an8rwpos.Egw anti8etws hmoun h proswpopoihsh ths maurilas (A mpa!!Twra to katalavame auto!!).Suxna anarwtiomoun kata poso mporousame na kanoume parea ka8ws eixame toso diaforetikh stash zwhs.Epishs uphrxan fores pou apla den ton katalavaina.Peiragmata filika,asteia,arketes stigmes pou pernousame kala.Toulaxiston ksexnousa estw gia ligo.Auth h sxesh omws diakophke gia kapoio diasthma,ki auto giati pistepsa kapoia stigmh oti to atomo auto den htan toso aksio empistosunhs.O kairos apedeikse oti ekana la8os telika.

Giati auto to atomo oxi mono de mou edwse mia 2h eukairia sthn epikoinwnia mas (oxi men oti to 8ewrhse etsi,egw to 8ewrw) alla egine kai o apo mhxanhs 8eos mou...!!

H prwth mas sunanthsh meta apo polu kairo sth gnwsth kafeteria opou ekeinos me eixe prwtopaei...
Hmoun kommatia meta to xwrismo mou.Den eixa oreksh gia polla asteia...H8ela mia kouventa sovarh,pera apo to xaritwmeno profil pou exw sunh8ws otan eimai eksw...
-8elw na dwsw ta panta kai na parw ta panta!Ma toso duskolo einai pia? tou eipa ka8ws tou elega ton pono mou...
Ekei vre8hke to 1o koino mas shmeio...!Kai h atmosfaira metaksu mas arxise na ginetai ligo pio...periergh!Arxisa na ton niw8w pio konta mou apo ton prohgoumeno kairo kai mia skepsh pernouse apo to mualo mou...eidika otan ekleisan ta fwta apo th diakoph reumatos,alla den thn ekana praksh giati den hksera antidrash.Eksallou,hmoun hdh polu mperdemenh ekeines tis meres...Mou perase,alla eksefrasa allh skepsh,se mia stigmh apoluths sugxushs.Akolou8hse ena petaxto fili gia to opoio eniwsa upervolika amhxana,den hksera an metaniwsa,an h8ela kai an htan swsto auto pou ekana...
Kati mesa mou omws me evaze se skepseis...Anameiktes,mperdemenes...
Apo th mia meria,eixa anagkh na niwsw epi8umhth kai hksera oti mporousa na to kanw.H8ela ligo paixnidi ka8ws evlepa nees eukairies na anoigontai mprosta mou,kai safws kaluteres.Eixa ena proais8hma,kati,alla o xronos me mperdeue...!Omws,htan swsto??

Mesa se treis-tesseris meres duo diaforetikoi antres me eixan filhsei kai me diekdikousan,ki ola auta mia-duo vdomades meta to xwrismo mou.Htan apo tis prwtes mou skepseis otan perimena to treno gia to gurismo,san me filhse o 2os,tragoudwntas to Feint twn Epica.Den htan swsto gia kanenan ap'tous duo.Giati de mporousa na dwsw se kanenan tipota,den antexa toso varos!!Epipleon,an kai eniw8a kolakeumenh apo th skepsh oti akoma aresw,eniw8a piesh skeftomenh oti den h8ela na kanw tous allous na niwsoun asxhma.O 1os aporrif8hke telika,kai oxi giati hr8e o 2os (dhladh o filos pou sunanthsa meta apo kairo),alla giati edeikse tetoia kthtikothta pou me apw8hse.Les kai eixame sxesh,pragma aparadekto.Epipleon,eimai uper tou fair play.Kai o 1os den thrhse swsta to vasiko kanona : oti pote den kerdizoume kapoia kathgorwntas se auth ton allo ''upopshfio''.O 1os auto ekane,se sundiasmo me kapoia alla pragmatakia vghke ektos.An kai sthn pragmatikothta pisteua oti autos pou 8a me kerdize de 8a htan kanenas tous ki auto giati h8ela na kleisw thn porta,na diaolosteilw to antriko fulo kai na pernw kai monh mou kala.

Ton eniw8a pio konta sa filo apo pote,arxisame na milame perissotero,na mou vgazei empistosunh,Opws ekane ki ekeinos.Kai htan ekplhksh gia mena to oti edeixne katannohsh se kapoia pragmata.Alla h8ela na meinei filos,mono auto kai auto h8ela na tou pw oso pio diakritika ginotan.De mporousa na dwsw,parolo pou estw uposuneidhta de mou htan adiaforos.
Vasika pote de mou htan pragmatika adiaforos,giati panta mou arese san antras,kai otan hmastan oi duo mas olo kai kapoio peiragmataki/flertaki uphrxe akoma kai otan hmastan mono filoi.( Kai den einai mono auto to asteio ths upo8eshs...!! )
Alla den h8ela me tipota na ton plhgwsw,eidika ekeinon.''Se euxaristw pou mou 8umhses ksana kati omorfo'',mou eixe pei.To teleutaio pragma loipon pou h8ela gia ekeinon htan na ksana8umotan pws auto to omorfo sunais8hma mporei na einai kai eksairetika epwduno.
Kati mesa tou eixe arxisei na dhmiourgeitai...Egw omws eniw8a oti katastrefomoun mera me th mera...Den h8ela me tipota na ton parasurw mazi mou...
Kratousa apostaseis asfaleias,etsi to evlepa.Arage...apo ekeinon h apo mena??Kalh erwthsh,8a afhsw ligo xrono kai isws vrw mia apanthsh.

Perase enas mhnas eksantlhtikos gia mena oson afora thn psuxologia mou.Sa na mhn h8ele na fugei o Martios...
Den uphrxe vradu xwris klama,xwris poto.Ki omws den uphrxe vradu xwris na mou steilei mia kalhnuxta...Ki auto me ponouse perissotero...Evlepa oti h8ele st'alh8eia na me diekdikhsei,na me voh8hsei,na me anevasei me kapoio tropo...Evlepa mikres spi8itses erwta...Kai me parakseneue to oti enw evlepe oti apomakrunomoun den to evaze katw.Den aksiza thn upomonh tou...etsi eniw8a.Ki auto giati pisteua oti 8a mou epairne polu kairo mexri na sunel8w...



Thn teleutaia mera tou Marth sunanth8hkame,htan mia kalh aformh ka8ws sunanth8hkame sto spiti enos filikou mas zeugariou.Eniwsa perierga otan ton eida,den kserw plhrws to giati.Edw epanerxetai h aporia mou pio panw.Apostaseis epo ekeinon h apo mena??Sthn prokeimenh periptwsh,htan apo mena.Mou evgale pragmata,th dia8esh na ton flertarw alla oxi gia thn ikanopoihsh tou egwismou mou!Eixa piei men,alla h dia8esh na ton flertarw egine entonoterh,an kai den hmoun sigourh gia to an 8a metaniwna meta apo ligh wra.Polla mperdemena ais8hmata,alla ena hksera sigoura,oti eniw8a elksh gia ekeinon ki oti ton h8ela.Etsi hr8e to prwto mas fili,ta prwta xadia...Wspou kati mesa mou me frenare,isws h skepsh ths pi8anhs ekmetalleushs.Alla den htan mono auto.
''Akoma agapw to Dhmhtrh''tou eipa kai ksespasa se klamata.De me enoiaze an ton stenoxwrousa,an ton plhgwna,otidhpote!Den evriska dieksodo pou8ena,sxedon den eixa suneidhtopoihsei oti ena mhna sunevaine auto to pragma,oti eixa xwrisei,oti ksana exana enan an8rwpo pou oti ki an apodeixthke oti htan eixa ais8hmata opws kai na xe!

Ekeinos anoikse mia megalh agkalia kai eklapsa se auth.Me hremhse,parolo pou de mporousa na stamathsw eukola to klama.Ta thlefwna ths mhteras mou de me afhnan se hsuxia,konteue 2 h wra,alla den h8ela na paw akoma spiti.H8ela na meinw mazi tou,me hremouse,ton xreiazomoun.Autes oi stigmes emoiazan toso kinhmatografikes,sa na mhn hmoun egw ekeinh th stigmh ki as htan dikos mou o ponos.Evlepa ton apo mhxanhs 8eo na swzei th Ntina apo thn katarreush...''An ekana th zwh mou tainia,tote sigoura auth h skhnh pou zw de 8a mporesei me tipota na apodw8ei toso kala oso th zw twra''skefthka apo mesa mou kapoia stigmh.
Eniw8a eugnwmosunh kai terastio pono tautoxrona.Akoma kai otan gurisa spiti kai milhsame sto thlefwno de mporousa na krathsw ta dakrua mou...
Mia skepsh omws arxise na plummhrizei to mualo mou a8oruva...H skepsh tou!!Oi mikres erwtikes stigmes pou zhsame ligo prin ekeino mou to ksespasma.To 2o arxise polu grhgora na ksexnietai!Ta filia mas,ta xadia mas,to poso eniwsa oti ton h8ela ekeinh th stigmh...Kai telika den htan mono gia ekeinh th stigmh.Apo ekeinh th mera mono ekeinos uparxei sto mualo mou,glukainontas thn pikrh geush ths prohgoumenhs mou sxeshs,kanontas me na niw8w oti mporei na mou dwsei auta ta ais8hmata pou 8elw.Ki oso paei o kairos suneidhtopoiw oti denomai mazi tou olo kai perissotero,merikes fores prospa8w na mhn to deiksw kai na krathsw kapoio freno apo fovo na mhn ton tromaksw kai apomakrun8ei,gnwrizontas to poso exei upoferei.

An kai eimaste mono 2 mhnes peripou (apo thn Prwtaprilia kai ka8e allo para farsa einai!!),einai h pio gemath sxesh pou eixa pote mou.AN mporei opiadhpote prohgoumenh mou sxesh na 8ewrh8ei sxesh,giati T W R A ma8ainw ti shmainei alh8inh kai ousiastikh sxesh!
Giati kaneis de mou exei fer8ei ksana opws ekeinos,anoigontas mou ton kosmo tou,thn ka8hmerinothta tou kai afhnontas me na eisel8w se auton.To mono pou eixa ma8ei na akouw htan oti :Shmera eimai egw,aurio kapoios allos.Enw ekeinos de stamataei na mou leei oti hr8e gia na meinei!!

Einai o antras pou panta epsaxna!!
Enas gnhsios antras me pragmatika arxidia,pou 8elei na parei ta panta kai na dwsei ta panta kai mou to deixnei sxedon ka8e mera pou vlepomaste! (kai to sxedon to anefera monaxa gia 1-2 meres th vdomada pou ka8omai spiti na kanw kammia douleia)
Kai sxedon den to pisteuw oti einai dikos mou!!De mou 8umizei kanenan prohgoumeno se TIPOTA,einai pera gia pera au8entikos!!
Mazi tou mporw na niw8w o eautos mou,me thn afhrhmada mou,thn adeksiothta mou,th fusikothta mou!!Kai me putzama na me dei (o logos to leei) kserw oti de 8a ton xalasei!!Kai auto me euxaristei apisteuta,giati shmainei oti h sxesh mas exei va8os!Apla ka8hmerina pragmatakia pou den exw moirastei pote me kanenan ta moirazomai mazi tou kai me gemizoun xara!Ma einai toso tuflos o kosmos pou pisteuei oti h ka8hmerinothta einai plhktikh!!
H zwh einai omorfh gia na th moirazomaste,akoma kai otan variomaste mporoume na to kanoume toso epoikodomhtika pou na apodidei kai auto akoma!!!!!!!

To posa omorfa pragmata exw dei autous tous sxedon duo mhnes de legontai oute mporoun na perigrafoun mesa se mia aplh anarthsh!Alla kai posa apisteuta,allote ki asteia pragmata mporoun na sumvoun akoma!!Kapoia stigmh isws anaferw merika asteia peristatika,pou den einai kai liga!

Auto pou kserw me olh mou thn kardia einai oti twra zw pragmatika,giati h agaph mou me ksupnhse apo ton poluxrono lh8argo mou!Twra kserw oti ta oneira mou den htan ximaires,alla pera gia pera alh8ina kai an8rwpina.Eimai upertuxerh pou vrhka ton an8rwpo me ton opoio 8elw na moirastw th zwh mou kai na kanoume polla pragmata mazi.
Ki akoma einai mono h arxh...
Ta kalutera ERXONTAIAIAIAI !!!! :)